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08-13-2004, 11:33 AM
Hi!!!
I am in South Africa.I have somethings that I think are the main course of my problems.When I was 10 years old that is in 1985,I was possesed by demons as they say.I was a very sharp student when I was growing-up.But after june of 1985 that is when my whole life changed.
I lost the interest I had in books,and that carried on Until I got to University and it bothers me,still.I am very much confused even in trying to face life.I always feel mercifull for myself.What I hate most is that the whole idea has changed my life for ever.I can't achive simple things that can be archivable easly.I am not saying that I a genius.But sometimes I have this feeling that I not perfoming to my outmost potential or I am not really doing the way i should.Take for example when I got he at University of Fort hare,I was amongst the best people at first people were coming to me for help.All of a sudden the was this thing that really blocked me,to such an extent some of those people I helped are out there working and I am still in this University struggling to finish the last few modules that are standing in my way.I know that I was or the brilliance within me but it is suppressed by pitty and anger and shame and all these funny feeling that are playing with my mind.I was healed I know but the only thing they for got to heal was my brain and my inner being.I can tell in my first year I us to get 80%-95% in my test.Until the some thing that has been following me since childhood.
I feel ashame to speak in aother languages as if I am not going to say things right whereas I know those languages.My younger brother is respected morethan me.I am just someone who happens to leave this life in an unexplainable way.
You know right now as I am writing this e-mail,I had a feeling that was pumping inside as if the something that is free and all of a sudden the was a bitter feeling that just made me sad.Not sad exactly but happy feeling just gone.
You know I tried listening to motivational tapes at some stge but the problem is that it helps just for a day,then after that I ill get this thing that is like blocking me from hearing anything thaty can help me.I can listen and get exited but immedialty when I stop listing to the tapes,I will have things that are like saying:"Wake-up and smell the coffee,life is not in tapes but it real.
I need help,i hope the is a way that i can be hypnothised and help me to bring back me.I know I can be whatever I want to be,I just need help.I can feel it in my soul I can make it if only I can be helped to "Break The Chain of The Past."
So,I want to know is possible that someone can be hypnothised and programmed to leave a changed and free life.
From Inneed
I am in South Africa.I have somethings that I think are the main course of my problems.When I was 10 years old that is in 1985,I was possesed by demons as they say.I was a very sharp student when I was growing-up.But after june of 1985 that is when my whole life changed.
I lost the interest I had in books,and that carried on Until I got to University and it bothers me,still.I am very much confused even in trying to face life.I always feel mercifull for myself.What I hate most is that the whole idea has changed my life for ever.I can't achive simple things that can be archivable easly.I am not saying that I a genius.But sometimes I have this feeling that I not perfoming to my outmost potential or I am not really doing the way i should.Take for example when I got he at University of Fort hare,I was amongst the best people at first people were coming to me for help.All of a sudden the was this thing that really blocked me,to such an extent some of those people I helped are out there working and I am still in this University struggling to finish the last few modules that are standing in my way.I know that I was or the brilliance within me but it is suppressed by pitty and anger and shame and all these funny feeling that are playing with my mind.I was healed I know but the only thing they for got to heal was my brain and my inner being.I can tell in my first year I us to get 80%-95% in my test.Until the some thing that has been following me since childhood.
I feel ashame to speak in aother languages as if I am not going to say things right whereas I know those languages.My younger brother is respected morethan me.I am just someone who happens to leave this life in an unexplainable way.
You know right now as I am writing this e-mail,I had a feeling that was pumping inside as if the something that is free and all of a sudden the was a bitter feeling that just made me sad.Not sad exactly but happy feeling just gone.
You know I tried listening to motivational tapes at some stge but the problem is that it helps just for a day,then after that I ill get this thing that is like blocking me from hearing anything thaty can help me.I can listen and get exited but immedialty when I stop listing to the tapes,I will have things that are like saying:"Wake-up and smell the coffee,life is not in tapes but it real.
I need help,i hope the is a way that i can be hypnothised and help me to bring back me.I know I can be whatever I want to be,I just need help.I can feel it in my soul I can make it if only I can be helped to "Break The Chain of The Past."
So,I want to know is possible that someone can be hypnothised and programmed to leave a changed and free life.
From Inneed